Will people forgive me?

I have lied many people know this by now but if you don't here's what happend. I was made a Tmod application, and about a month passes by and I see Tuktuk put a post about my age and some other stuff and I see this on the forums and I'm ashamed so I put a post out saying I'm done with Backstabs but in a week it has four pages, of mostly Mike saying how I should come back but I just feel like if I come back I know that their going to use that against me, 3 days later and I'm playing with MustacheAlpaca and I tell him how I'm done with Backstabs and he brings some inspiring words (ps I was playing half life 2) hes telling me to come back and I say "I'm ashamed and how people don't like me anyways" and he says "you know how when you see enemies in the game that means your going the right way well its the same with life you will have enemies and you have to get through life like the game" ,and I thinking about this hard so I made this before this he said most people on my I'm done with backstab thing the only people who were basically the only one who was being mean in any way was Tuktuk, and MustacheAlpaca said he will dis on any one who is not his friend, and I got it so here's my final question will you forgive me if 10 people say yes then I'll come back.



And the reason I'm doing this so early is because it seemed like alot of people wanted me back not on the forums but steam chat so yeah.