Post by Gho on Nov 15, 2015 20:18:05 GMT
I know i have been an idiot on the server. I'm sorry... I have always just wanted to shine some spirit and laughter to the server, but at the same time take my Trial moderator job seriously. I might act like an idiot but i have a passion and obsession being Trial mod. I have done many things that i totally regret... I have done many things that i wish i have never done... I just want to say i am sorry for disappointing you guys, and wasting your time.
This is not my lifetime story but i just want to tell you guys about me as a player. From the beginning to now. All of the things i have done wrong.
It all started when i first joined... I had no idea what i was doing. Honestly, i first believed TTT was like a death match. xD Yes i rdmed. Yes i was a noob. Yes i had no idea what i was doing. I got slayed a couple times... Maybe a million times. I soon got a hang on what i was doing. I started to enjoy the game. I finally knew what i was doing. I played for 3-5 hours at a time... I was obsessed. I always muted everyone, not knowing if i was ever kosed. So i was wandering why i was always being killed.(people were calling Koses on me in Mic Chat) Then i stopped muting people. I got to know some people. A LOT of people. Some nice and others cruel and racist. They got into my head. i couldn't play knowing people thought i was some "Fag". I didn't know... I quit playing. People got into my head and ruined my "fun and enjoyment". People can be cruel these days... I stopped for a couple weeks and decided to get back on. I had hope those people would be gone. But then i met someone. Someone who has changed my Gmod Trouble in Terroist Town game-play forever. Jam in a Jukebox. I saw that "they" was a moderator. I didn't exactly know what a moderator was... I thought they were just the mean people who But i realized that they were the "good guys" the police of the server. Someone who would stop the "cyber bullies" xD. Jam taught me to block them out. Just ignore them. He taught me the rules and told me what ive been doing wrong and how to improve. I started becoming "that annoying User who thinks hes staff and keeps telling the Mods how to do their job guy" I never thought of myself like that, until today. I started meeting new moderators and admins. Some staff that i knew were: Jam in a Jukebox, CoryInYouClan, Sethlord200, Aiden Dolphin, Alexontuktuk, DaddyBendover, and some others that i probably left out. I never realized how much of a dick i was until i did something I would forever regret.
It all started when i first meet backstab. I knew who he was. The owner, the "Leader", the "creator". I was casually playing as usual, being a dick. :c I threw a discombobulater. It launched someone off the edge of the cliff on Mc_B5. Almost killing the victim... (No that's not what i regret) Backstab killed me. I started going ape... Yes i went crazy on the owner(Yes, thats a dick move) I wandered why he killed me. He told me that discombobs are kosable. I argued with him and said i never threw a discombob (it went off in my hand). Then backstab told me to read the rules. I realized that i never read the rules. I started to panic. I quickly skimmed through them and said their was no rule saying that discombobs are kosable.(once again, another dick move) Backstab was right and i didn't know it. This went on for a long time. I argued with the owner over something stupid that i should of know and to this day it still haunts me, and no matter what i do good for the server i still remember that.
I just want to say sorry for what i have done in the past. I also want to say i take my job a Trial Moderator seriously. I might goof around but i still take reports seriously. I look deep into them. I look at both Victim's and reported person's perspective. I check damage logs, and View death scene. I even check shot logs if i have to. I just want you to know that people can change backstab(not meaning that in a Douche way). I have changed. Ill start taking my job EVEN MORE serious if you want me to. I'm just really sorry.
-Yours Truly[or not] Gho
P.S. i didnt reread this for grammar errors, because im in a hurry. Sorry :c
This is not my lifetime story but i just want to tell you guys about me as a player. From the beginning to now. All of the things i have done wrong.
It all started when i first joined... I had no idea what i was doing. Honestly, i first believed TTT was like a death match. xD Yes i rdmed. Yes i was a noob. Yes i had no idea what i was doing. I got slayed a couple times... Maybe a million times. I soon got a hang on what i was doing. I started to enjoy the game. I finally knew what i was doing. I played for 3-5 hours at a time... I was obsessed. I always muted everyone, not knowing if i was ever kosed. So i was wandering why i was always being killed.(people were calling Koses on me in Mic Chat) Then i stopped muting people. I got to know some people. A LOT of people. Some nice and others cruel and racist. They got into my head. i couldn't play knowing people thought i was some "Fag". I didn't know... I quit playing. People got into my head and ruined my "fun and enjoyment". People can be cruel these days... I stopped for a couple weeks and decided to get back on. I had hope those people would be gone. But then i met someone. Someone who has changed my Gmod Trouble in Terroist Town game-play forever. Jam in a Jukebox. I saw that "they" was a moderator. I didn't exactly know what a moderator was... I thought they were just the mean people who But i realized that they were the "good guys" the police of the server. Someone who would stop the "cyber bullies" xD. Jam taught me to block them out. Just ignore them. He taught me the rules and told me what ive been doing wrong and how to improve. I started becoming "that annoying User who thinks hes staff and keeps telling the Mods how to do their job guy" I never thought of myself like that, until today. I started meeting new moderators and admins. Some staff that i knew were: Jam in a Jukebox, CoryInYouClan, Sethlord200, Aiden Dolphin, Alexontuktuk, DaddyBendover, and some others that i probably left out. I never realized how much of a dick i was until i did something I would forever regret.
It all started when i first meet backstab. I knew who he was. The owner, the "Leader", the "creator". I was casually playing as usual, being a dick. :c I threw a discombobulater. It launched someone off the edge of the cliff on Mc_B5. Almost killing the victim... (No that's not what i regret) Backstab killed me. I started going ape... Yes i went crazy on the owner(Yes, thats a dick move) I wandered why he killed me. He told me that discombobs are kosable. I argued with him and said i never threw a discombob (it went off in my hand). Then backstab told me to read the rules. I realized that i never read the rules. I started to panic. I quickly skimmed through them and said their was no rule saying that discombobs are kosable.(once again, another dick move) Backstab was right and i didn't know it. This went on for a long time. I argued with the owner over something stupid that i should of know and to this day it still haunts me, and no matter what i do good for the server i still remember that.
I just want to say sorry for what i have done in the past. I also want to say i take my job a Trial Moderator seriously. I might goof around but i still take reports seriously. I look deep into them. I look at both Victim's and reported person's perspective. I check damage logs, and View death scene. I even check shot logs if i have to. I just want you to know that people can change backstab(not meaning that in a Douche way). I have changed. Ill start taking my job EVEN MORE serious if you want me to. I'm just really sorry.
-Yours Truly[or not] Gho
P.S. i didnt reread this for grammar errors, because im in a hurry. Sorry :c
