Post by Waste on Oct 21, 2015 1:48:20 GMT
Since I've come so far on the server, some things have been eating away at me. I need to let it out, even if it means demotion.
In the Summer, when I was on for roughly 6 hours a day, I made the server miserable for others. I'm very, very sorry. I was always a jerk. I would complain about every single report that I got slain for. I would argue with staff. I would Tbait, RDM, and disrespect. I was so childish... I hated myself for it.
Aiden Dolphin, I need to apologize to you directly. I would always be rude to you, even though you were so nice... I honestly used to talk behind your back. I don't remember what I said. I just want to apologize for it, because you did nothing wrong. You just did your job and did it well.
Along with any other Moderators/Tmods/Players who endured me when I was such a terrible person, (well, actually maybe I still am) I am so, so sorry. I bet you all wanted me gone, banned, just to disappear like that Lebron James guy did. I should have been banned permanently, because I rdmed maybe 8 times in one round, then left. I guess a staff member slipped up or something, and I was banned for a week. I don't deserve the position I am currently in.
Now, for the real confessions. I used to ghost. I did it maybe 2 or 3 times. I would get killed by a traitor when I was having a good round, and my brother would be in the other room. I would get upset and yell who it was to my brother. He would proceed to kill them. I made a huge, huge mistake. I wouldn't be able to live with it if I didn't say it here. If you want to demote me for this, go ahead. If you want to ban me, go ahead. The truth needed to come out.
I cannot apologize enough for all I did. I went out of my way at that point to anger you guys, and that is completely unacceptable. I changed over the span of about a month, and here I am. I don't know how it was even possible for this to happen, but I went from a hated RDMer, to a hated Moderator. Well, at least that second part changed. I'm so sorry for everything. If I get banned, I will not return or defend myself. If I do, goodbye in advance, I loved you all, as well as the server, and I hope for the best. I'm glad I was able to be changed both in the game, and as a real person as well as mature, make new friends, and learn valuable lessons. I can't think of much else to say other than thank you, and I am so, so sorry.
In the Summer, when I was on for roughly 6 hours a day, I made the server miserable for others. I'm very, very sorry. I was always a jerk. I would complain about every single report that I got slain for. I would argue with staff. I would Tbait, RDM, and disrespect. I was so childish... I hated myself for it.
Aiden Dolphin, I need to apologize to you directly. I would always be rude to you, even though you were so nice... I honestly used to talk behind your back. I don't remember what I said. I just want to apologize for it, because you did nothing wrong. You just did your job and did it well.
Along with any other Moderators/Tmods/Players who endured me when I was such a terrible person, (well, actually maybe I still am) I am so, so sorry. I bet you all wanted me gone, banned, just to disappear like that Lebron James guy did. I should have been banned permanently, because I rdmed maybe 8 times in one round, then left. I guess a staff member slipped up or something, and I was banned for a week. I don't deserve the position I am currently in.
Now, for the real confessions. I used to ghost. I did it maybe 2 or 3 times. I would get killed by a traitor when I was having a good round, and my brother would be in the other room. I would get upset and yell who it was to my brother. He would proceed to kill them. I made a huge, huge mistake. I wouldn't be able to live with it if I didn't say it here. If you want to demote me for this, go ahead. If you want to ban me, go ahead. The truth needed to come out.
I cannot apologize enough for all I did. I went out of my way at that point to anger you guys, and that is completely unacceptable. I changed over the span of about a month, and here I am. I don't know how it was even possible for this to happen, but I went from a hated RDMer, to a hated Moderator. Well, at least that second part changed. I'm so sorry for everything. If I get banned, I will not return or defend myself. If I do, goodbye in advance, I loved you all, as well as the server, and I hope for the best. I'm glad I was able to be changed both in the game, and as a real person as well as mature, make new friends, and learn valuable lessons. I can't think of much else to say other than thank you, and I am so, so sorry.
